Sheer desperation caused me to take antidepressants. I hated the idea of taking them. Well, at least the idea of me taking them. Outwardly, I was a gong-ho supporter of mental health campaigns, tweeting #BellLetsTalk, and dutifully listening whenever one of my friends felt down or stressed. But there was a dissonance between my superficial support of mental health and my utter denial of my own issues.